Everything is so epic really

Bigbang is having going to have their concert first time in Malaysia during their Alive Tour.

And I has no money nor time nor authorization nor transport.

*sobs*

I'll just have to wait for next time, whenever far away that reality may be. :/
I love them so freaking much and I'm going to love them more and more. That's a fact.

xxx

The dance competition is today, and as you can see, our participation is canceled. I bought all sorts of materials to make props and accessories just for the occasion, so they shall stay in the cabinets until crafting days come. Which is a year away. Oh well.

As disappointed as I may be, its gone. It wouldn't go well if we do participate anyways.

It's okay though, I guess, even if it may be the last chance of joining any sort of beginner-level dance competitions. Its not like I'd have the skill to compete yet either.

...

Okay I admit, I'm sad about it lol.

I bought a pretty jacket and finally got myself a hot glue gun(after years lol) during material shopping too, it does do some cure!

xxx

Also, the cancellation gave me time to end the craziness of two out of three huge project school works at once. The explanations of my absence online.

So so busy and tiring, and week without good sleep until the day before yesterday.

And there's still 100 fishies and 5+3 coloured canvas shoes and 8 full step by step process ilustrations to draw for the arts project. Due Monday.

*sobs again*

xxx

I lub being busy. It so frustrating its feels good.

xxx

I being chatting with friends at school about BJDs during Monday. And one lent me a cosplay tutorial book, with a whole chapter covering on BJDs on Wednesday. Can you believe it? The first time seeing something dolly related in real life lol.

To add on that, another friend lent me a copy of Another (anime) on the same day. Juicy horror anime, yums. To my surprise, there are dollies too!! No one could imagine how excited I was hahahahahaaaa

Overeactive oh yea.

But it couldn't be a coincidence that their opening song was sang by ALI PROJECT seriously? Because they sang for Rozen Maiden too ( FYI its an anime about BJDs too).

xxx

As a random note, something about me that people don't really know about me, and as hard as it is to admit,

I have an abnormal liking towards bunnies.

xxx

And its a seriously complete coincidence that some of my Starskull bunnies resembles B.A.P. mascots, the MATOKI or whatever you call them. Yes, its a simple design that may be done to death by anyone but I certainly did not copy. The Starskull bunny I designed during 2010.

The mascots are damn cute, of course ...Maybe make fan merchandise for them? Is it legal to do that?

xxx

...

Daesung's voice is so calming. I need more solos from him on infinite replay :'>

Tuition, Usual student life, Oppas, and Dollies

So i've signed up to two more tuition classes. Which means I have to stay at the tuition centre for three and a half hours straight every Saturday and Sunday. Great.

Well its not that bad actually. And with extra study reinforcements means less need to study during free time for me yaays

The first class today was Chemistry, and its quite amusing that the teacher calls every student her "darlings". Its quite a surprise to see so many friends I knew in that class, since I only knew one of my classmates attend it, and the other classes I took had not a single person familiar... I was happy that I can meet some of my classmates from primary school(who are also fellow ELFs ) but the fact that the subject and syllabus is confusing took part of the excitement away. And that fact that a class for additional math is scheduled right after that means no chance to chat up with them : /


On a side note, i seem to be more a VIP than an ELF lately, and Bigbang's playlist is on constant replay. As of current, BB posters on the wall outnumber Suju, phone and laptop wallpapers, profile pictures, avatars, fb cover photos are all Bigbangggg~

To my lovely RL ELF friends:
I'm waiting for suju's comeback with their sixth album too...I can't say I don't love SJ or BB so please dears please don't make me feel guilty TwT I love both groups and can't live without them both, voting for the other doesn't make me unloyal okay?

xxx


Anyways, for these few days I had this unreasonable craving to sculpt and create yet another BJD. Yes, I am totally aware that my first daughter is still unfinished and shelved but it takes more time and brain grilling to repair her than making a new doll IMO. Or at least for now.

Then as the crave grows the extra time and peace I have from staying at my cousin's house(they will be outstation for a few days) came to be invested in drawing plans for new doll designs and daydreaming about the production process. As of currently, I had two lines of dolls designed!! In a total of six dolls of varying body size. I'd like to show the plans but it should be kept as a business secret for now : D

I DO have the intent of selling dolls I made myself and I am serious when I say I dream to be a toy designer hahaha. To design collectibles and amusing toys for the mature population, or whatever they should be properly called (because we all know the term 'adult toys' sounds horribly wrong).

So during the three months of waiting for the finals results, I will bring these darlings to life, and hopefully to production.

Though the materials for BJDs are usually resin, I might opt for a cheaper, more affordable material (possibly vinyl) for them. Do my best to earn them a place higher than those bobble-headed Pullips and Blythes (no offense, they're lovable).And maybe make them into something like Gundam kits, to let people assemble them with their own hands and risk getting bootlegged .

There are even plans to sculpt heads resembling our handsome oppas. I have a list of those ulzzangs ready too.

But as for now I hadn't really any materials or money anyways so in the midst of desire there came this idea of making something for someone, and satisfying myself in the process, so I offered my manga class sensei a commission, to make him a personal customized OOAK BJD of one of his own characters ^^

On a discount so big that he'll just have to pay for clay since its primarily to settle my 'unease', to hone some skills in sculpting, and also to fulfill some other desires, like feeding my dA account a decent Deviation. It's some sort of kick start for my dolly empire too! Of course I'll do my best job at it.

Such nice for my brain to think of such a good idea which makes everyone happy. I am in unexplainable ecstasy now : >

...Okay maybe not my loving parents who notice I'm not studying hard enough.

I promise to study really hard everyday so not to jeopardize my studies, and for the sake of not feeling guilty while sculpting, and make it the recreation time I earned through being a hardworking student for the week!! Fighting!!

Oh and this: (warning, don't watch if you have a distaste for highly realistic dolls, or have not a stomach from the Uncanny Valley.)

Such a talented artist. Such a beautiful doll. Such great skills. Although his works creep me out at first, i'm loving them more and more now.

Baby I'm not a Monster

Oeiyyaaa new song from BigBang <3

Dae is getting more and more hawt.

Yes, just to update that. xD

Random artsy post ^^

I've returned after a few days being in fits ^^ I never record my anger towards anything because sharing the discomfort to everyone and having it remind me every time seeing the post is  no good. so as you can see I got over it so here I am now xD

Some more sharpie inks on my skin here ~

 BIGBANG and NU'EST <3 

I can never get enough these xD

Swirls and swirls and more swirlsss

And lastly, a doodle of my little angel Ren during class <3

So effin cute omg haha

btw its the first time being able to cartoonify someone real successfully lol xD

Nothing much to post about really, haha.

Just being busy with school and dance practice and such lately : >

NU'EST

My new crush is Ren (Choi Minki) from NU’EST <3 Oh dear freaking goodness I love NU’EST so much now, especially Ren T,T why why why must there be so many pretty boys to love TwT

Well actually this is supposed to be an oc inspired by Ren, since I couldn’t make up my mind on a design before, so yeah. I haven’t thought of a name for him either, maybe it’ll end up as Ren too lol (okay maybe not, too many people with that name) Any suggestions?

REN REN REN REN REN MINKI <3

Oh ya and what I did to my hand yesterday xD

And I still can't believe the BIGBANG was drawn freehand : |

Anyways. What do you think about the new group? Feel free to comment about your bias ^^

Resting for now ^^

Heya~

today was a special holiday from school, QingMing festival~ so i stayed at home to watch some kpop xD

Yesterday I watched Face by Nu'est and loved the dance!! The moves are slick and cool ~ It's definitely a must-learn! They debuted just recently, and I picked out my bias almost immediately~ Ren and his girly face hehheheee ... well i don't usually like girly boys but he is just cute xD And my, are they so young! except from Aron who is a 93er, the rest are all my age!! And Ren, their maknae, is only a month older than me... what a close-call from being a pedonoona lol 

And judging by my reaction, I guess I might refrain from becoming a fan of  any boy bands younger than me heheh

xxx

Revisited my tumblr just now, and read some olden writings there...compared to my current mindset it seems that I've become more shallow and senseless since orz

the layout there looks more clean and light, made me think of migrating there~ but then I thought , any clean and light stuff will be terribly stained by my unsightly random ramblings lol. and it feels more comfortable here. Another way of saying is that my abstract mind has took blog sites as if they're houses. Blogger is home while Tumblr is a vacation house somewhere like Holland or England lol

xxx

Updated my dA Journal too. Wow, there is so little to say there. What the hell has happened?

xxx

You know those A Piece A Day stuff? Very good for improving art, writing or anything for that matter (i guess). Thinking of starting that. Maybe I'll use Tumblr for that, yea. This blog shall become home for all the undecent rants for anything I love instead. Kpop, Random crafts, Ball-Jointed Dollies...And life. 

xxx

Spent the whole time yesterday and today morning searching a suitable doll sculpt as my 60cm+ boy~ the companies now narrow down to Souldoll and Soom. I might get a Fairyland body for him, as FL bodies are just perfect~ But any other decent ones will do too, of course.

Yays.

The feeling of failure. ugh.

The arts and designs I've been creating for a variety of uses have been very disappointing to myself. Everyone else still thinks that the things I design are good, pretty and even awesome, but inside there's this conscience whispering repeatedly, " its sloppy, and the lazy ass artist could have done much better with a little more effort. it could have looked much better. it could have been much more awesome. you didn't do enough. you could have done more. you could have given a little more effort..."

It scares me that somewhere behind all their nice comments, there are a lot of complaints, big parts of the work needs to be corrected, but they should not try to demotivate their beloved friend by saying the work sucks. They have a good heart, they care a lot. But the repeated praises and the lack of critique... I need all the cursing and complaints on the work so much now... I wish they would just say whatever comes into their mind, whatever fault they see in the designs I stayed up nights for.

The praises are too much. The drawings need more work, more color, don't just accept it just because I am the only one responsible to make the design... Changing my designs one by one... they could have told me to make another design entirely, telling me that the original was crap, they will get a better artist for it, anything.  Just say it to my face. Just say it.

Ah. But the feelings. The politeness.

My designs for the shirts was piles of sloppy crap.

xxx

Although it was a week-long holidays it was jammed-pack with activities, especially our uniformed unit's year camp, a.k.a. the annual intense exercises lol. Three days straight of being part of the committee for camps took the hell out of my body. So so dead tired.

I've never tried to be hyper and happy for so many days at once. The forced laughs has become natural and  happiness and excitement can actually be felt, even if it was made from thin air. Being happy is all self talk, and it was merely a choice after all!

These two days were also the first times interacting with so many people within three hours. Maybe I can break away from my cold and quiet self? Being host of the base games during both the year camp and a big-scale combined camp was quite challenging xD The big camp was a failure though. The controlled hype today died out and the depression kicked in at the last hours, making me the only one missing out the huge group shot for the big camp, in the other room, listening to Big bang's songs and drizzle accompanied by blowing winds, basking in the the only atmosphere that feels like home---- solitude.

Because. The smiling faces of humiliated failing, is intolerable.

xxx

Tomorrow's the last Sunday available for sleeping in from now onwards. After all that mess of high, finally I get to spend the last day of my holiday tomorrow...

.... doing homework. Juuuust great.

60th post~ Talking about the start of my addiction~ beware of the long post~

Significant number you think? Well I've wasted my fiftieth post away so here's something special hahaa

Here I'mma talk about how i got into the fandom, and my tastes in kpop biases lol. I'll make out a list of who i like too.

Okay, so I got into the kpop fandom on April 23rd 2011. The reason why I remember is because it my uniformed unit at school decided to dance SHINee's Lucifer for the teacher's day performance. Because  my cousins were already Kpop addicts I had the idea of what the fandom was about, and heard about SHINee before. First reaction: "Shiny?? Why the hell would they give such a name to a boy group instead of a girl group? lololol "

After receiving the news I checked out the dance version right away. I like to dance too but haven't been dancing formally for around five years, so the dance version got me excited.

I didn't really like the kpop thing at first because thats about the only thing that my two favorite cousins talk about and watch the whole day online. To me, it looked more like a waste of time and internet usage, and I was more loyal towards my manga stuff and anime songs. I had heard and even tried to dance NU ABO two years back but the fandom didn't really attracted my attention.

One of my best friends was a Shawol with an obsession with Taemin (when she had her own computer at home the first time, there wasn't an internet connection yet and the only entertaining thing in her new laptop was a HD music video of Lucifer, so she actually ended up watching that ten times a day lol), and she won't stop talking about SHINess either. "Oh dears another kpop fan..." I thought. Not that its bad, but the fact that they won't stop talking about it was a tad bit annoying...

At my cousin's I was repeating the dance practice video of Lucifer for a few times to learn the dance, it turned out to be quite enjoyable than expected, and it was rather easy to keep up with the  cool dance, and the song was addicting too... then I noticed Taemin's super-cute smile...then I found myself admiring Jonghyun's shoulders instead dancing (and that was the main reason I checked out their member's profile too LOL) After finding more about the group, it was worth it to find Jonghyun such a hot eye-candy, so I stayed in the fandom LOLOL

Though I was watching only Jjong at first, my first true bias idol was KEY : D He was the first one I went crazy over. I even printed an A4-sized picture of him for the cover of my school file, so I can stare at him everyday xD I was never really obsessed about idols(or even real people, for that matter) and it was the first time I put anything aside from artwork as a cover !! Gaahhh

Then I proceeded to waste a majority of my ever-precious online time watching videos of them instead of learning useful stuff such as drawing, languages and crafting... well at least like that I have something to talk about with my cousin and friends :)

Then around mid July my main group shifted to Super Junior, along with the once-Shawol-friend, who now had Leeteuk as her phone wallpaper, screensaver, loading screen etc etc. Though I've watched the dance video of Sorry,Sorry around a million times the year before, again, it did not attract. The only thing I knew then was they were big in numbers. 13 members in one group was insane. After entering the fandom I only knew them as SHINee's sunbaes. Then I heard Bonamana.

The music video for that had lingered on the top of "recomended videos" on youtube, almost on every Shinee video I watch, but never had the thought of watching it. After hearing the song I decided give it a chance. Which hauled be further into the black hole of Kpop.

When I watched the mv for No Other, my thought was, " Wow these guys are alot hotter than SHINee." , never thought that it would be the first sign for a change of heart. Because they have an entirely different feel.

After watching a video on variety show segment, where they have to have a meal without laughing, even when having to use weird and unusable tools to eat. Eunhyuk couldn't hold his laugh everytime a tool was revealed, and got hit several times because of that, poor guy. But the infinite adorableness blasting out of his cute laughter made the world look as if it was made with peaches. Just by that video, he automatically became a full-time bias.


On a side note there was these guys i noticed when watching Suju dances, they have a special presence when dancing, but of course, I hadn't known who was who back then, thanks to the size of the group and the fact that I like seeing them dance more that looking at pictures. In Sorry,sorry, there was this guy in sunglasses, and gloves, in Bonamana, the smooth guy in goggles with a jacket around his waist, and the one with a fake scar on one eye with a trapper hat, in No Other, the cute guy with the sweet rap. These were the only ones that caught my attention.

It was after getting to know them more that I know they were all the same person-- the one who became my bias. Can you believe it?!?


The frenzy over Hyukkie lasted half a year, and became a little subtle just lately. Because. It's BIGBANG's COMEBACK.

I'm not sure when I started to love BB and 2ne1, but I know, from the first time I heard their songs, it was definite that they were made with pure epicness. I remember when Lies was a big hit back in 2007, it stuck in my head even though I just heard it once, and just knew it was a foreign language. Kpop was not even known around my area back then (when I even thought TVXQ was japanese, since they show up once in a while, and were the "normal" singers, not popular ones. What shock I had when finally knowing the size of their fanclub lol) .

The more I listen to BigBang's songs, the more I had to admit, they are true, pure talents. Every song they have to offer, are filled with nothing but overflowing awesomeness. No matter how much I say I love Super Junior, Bigbang is always at a slightly higher place. With 2ne1, their songs were the only ones that can heal my soul with a 100% rate of succession, and are the only songs that I can listen to, 24/7 all year round without getting sick. Really.

As of current, the main groups I listen to are:
BIGBANG -- oh all my heart and soul and all the awesomeness in my life
2NE1 -- my conscious TwT
Super Junior -- fanservice i can't live without lol gotta love them 
SHINee -- my first love ~
Epik High -- epicness. nuff said.
Infinite -- bunch of cute little dorks
S.M. The Ballad -- such amazing voices


Other not-so-main groups, just because I hadn't have the time to listen more, but I admire them lots:
T-ara -- haven't had the chance to hear more, they're so good xD
miss A
Wonder Girls -- their title songs are addictive xD
Brown Eyed Girls --adult idols hehehee
4minute~~
B2st
TVXQ&JYJ
KARA
SNSD -- they're pretty~ but for some reason i dislike them a bit

2pm, 2am

C.N. Blue
F.T. Island ( these two bands are awesome.. I regret not being able to make time for them : /)

I think I've listed pretty much all the recent significant groups in the kpop industy here lol



Some other groups that i like for some reason:
B1A4 -- they're somewhat weird lol
ZE:A -- ah, running balls of sunshine
U-kiss -- but their title songs feels redundant ...
After School -- not Orange Caramel though, they sometime creep the shit out of me lol
Girls day -- their fast paced cute choreography had incredible sync !!
Coed School --  How often you see mixed groups? their songs are cute heheh

Okay, now for my tastes lol
I like those who have overflowing adorableness, no dorks (though some dorkiness can be accepted), has a good heart and are not too loud. Appearance usually does not matter, since I don't seem to be attracted to those with "perfect faces" ( the only few exceptions being b1a4's Jinyoung and Ze:a's moonleader and Dongjun :B). If not they'll just have to be amusing (because everyone loves some daily Kim Heechul). The only bias allowed to be a super dork and make me lmao without sounding human is Daesung xD

Now for the list~ Ultimate Bias List as of 11Mar2012~ *insert twinkling sound effects*
1 Eunhyuk
2 Daesung
3 BigSpaceStar Kim Heechul
4 G-Dragon, T.O.P., Taeyang, Seungri (because they're just badass)
5 All 2NE1 members. Coolest unnies kyaaaaa
6 Leeteuk
7 Key
8 The rest of SuJu members (with exception of Shindong, and Zhoumi. they scare me for some reason)
9 The rest of SHINee members~ I still love them, yes.
10 Inpiniteu~!!

The list actually goes on and on but I'm tired now lol.

So happeee~

Had a chance( or more like forced a chance) to draw some serious stuff today! yaaaaaaaaaay!

Guess who is it~?

TAEYANG!!

xDD

done in conjunction of their comeback hehheeeee

used a few hours in class today, and took another two hours to make corrections at home... damn my hands need to use some nitro orz

how it looked like before the correcting session, with the reference:

ewwwwwww

seeing it makes me cringe = =;;; I guess thats what you get when you draw too much of T.O.P..anyone else you draw will look more like him orz

it's been long since I've spent so long on drawing <3 the immense satisfaction from it is indescribable!! And the love for BIGBANG!! and their major comeback kyaaaaaaaaaa is this even the real world now al;dfjlwkegjwofslkdfv

doesn't really help that test are in a few days though. might be stopping from free drawing until the end of the year for studies *cries rivers* oh gawd  the last year of school is so stressful...

Two of the shirts I've designed for the clubs/camps at school are going to be made! So excited about it xDD will certainly post them when i get my smudgey hands on them hehehehee

Statements.

Today, was a day I couldn't really describe. I feel so happy, excited, but horrible at the same time. Still feeling as tired as if staying up all night despite having more sleep than usual. The walls and shields I usually put up against every other people in this world somehow disappeared. The thoughts that were never brought up nor told to anyone else, are now shouted directly at others, without any worries of the consequences nor outcome, without even holding back. Something I always wished to do, expressing without doubt nor guilt. It must be the inertia of insanity accompanied by lingering tiredness.

The frustrations caused by my sloth and indecisive state... that haunted me for so long has finally hauled me down the drain. What  I will become of in the future any more? everything seems so easy yet hard at the same time. How do people go through all that? I do know, just so confused. Just like knowing all the directions, but not where to head for. 

The song that BigBang brought out today is beyond beautiful. Listening to it brought me to tears on this frustrating day. 

No matter how much other groups can impress, BigBang is the only one that I can make me live and heal from wounds and sadness with their music. 

Their songs can reach people's souls. That's why.

I just want to cry everything out in a corner of a dark room, with this song on repeat.

BIGBANG IS BACK!!!!!

aql;dfalekfgq;wlkfjwqlfqwsdfff omgthey'refinallyback!!!!!!!!!! <3 seriously I could cry so hard now ლ( ΠΔΠლ) itssobeautifullikereallyyyyyyyy

miss them so freaking much !!!  i'mma listen to this for at least 24 hours continuously T.T

The happiest days since school started xD

Ah... it surely feels much relaxing to do art  homework... Finally I get to draw some stuff without worrying about anything else!!

Its also nice since this time's assignment gives me a chance to do some research on shoes, something I was never been able to draw well xD and besides that it also gave me an excuse to be in front of the computer longer, finding references of pretty shoes and beautiful sea life <3

*17 FEB 2012*

Talking about sea life, we had an art project during the art club meeting at school too! As the vice-chairman of the club, I get to help Pn.Mazwin, the teacher in charge(our lovely art teacer, who also teaches art class^^) to make preparations for the members (which I had to skip some  boring classes for, because of the teacher's procrastination lol *yays*. btw the PE class before that almost killed me again, making this a great chance to get rest haha). 

The project for this week is tile art!! We get to paint on white tiles with glass paint ~ Since I was one of the students who could draw better, the art teacher made me in charge of making a sample (which means my project will get higher priority too xD). Well, the teacher wanted me to copy another drawing instead, but since it was a cute little mollusk I'm not complaining xD Yes its a nautilus,but they all call it a "sotong" (squid)  lol

So i copied it onto the tile, chose three colours and the teacher started colouring it (since I'm sorta colour blind and tone deaf orz). The three colours were blue, blue and blue~ !I love blue so much I don't care if it turns out monotoned kekekeee

Pn.Mazwin helping me out with colour ^^

Neon Blue mollusk FTW! xDD

 the original drawing was very pretty too! wonder who drew it.

Too bad we just got one hour so nobody finished anything but the sketch. To be continued next meeting~

*18 FEB 2012*

Woke up for lunch because of staying up late... More of this unhealthy lifestyle you'll get a panda for selcas~!

I wanted to clean up my room during the day but ended up doing nothing at all orz. Failure.

Basically I was in front of the computer for the whole day finding references for art assignment. Canvas shoes, painted shoes, fishes, corals... *excuses excuses*

... okay confessions: I was watching ZE:A, ZE:A and more  ZE:A xDD

Somehow me and my friend are starting to go crazy over them since this week lol. Even while staying back at school to discuss a dance for the upcoming camp we decided to learn Mazeltov kekekeee  Can never resist the charm of pretty boys! Especially the handsome Moonleader <3  find it hard picking a bias for now though xD 

Just <3

Lastly, had mashed potatoes for dinner~ sculpted a cute little skull halfway through~

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*19 FEB 2012*

Had moar mashed potatoes for breakfast today 

Okay okay, enough potatoes.

Here's my homework so far~ never really drawn anything seriously for the while...

 

I seriously need to do revision instead of all these lol

Going out to cousin's house later to print some stuff. That's it for now ! Sorry for the photo barage though. 

Lee HyukJae What Have You Done

I was about to give up on ranting about what Hyukkie did during WGM (teuksora ep16, Fighting Junior's blind date) due to certain reasons(and it's already a hot debate topic) but still I have to.

So yesterday our dance leader, K was all anti-Eunhyuk during dance practice. "I hate Eyunhyook!! He is such a playboy! How could he make a girl cry like that!!" which annoyed me much as a Jewel, and tried to defend but since I haven't been catching on WGM episodes it was a fail. It was quite a great shock watching it today. And here is my thoughts.

Lee Sena is so cute.

Normally female artists don't grasp my attention as much but she has just the correct frequency that suits my appetite SPOT-ON xDD Not necessarily the prettiest but the kind that is adorable and all (which is also the same I fell in love with Hyukkie) and the minute she showed up I knew I would like her the best. And just when she was coupled with Hyukkie, there was an ever shining "PERFECT COUPLE" caps,in huge font on the computer screen (well, the same goes to all the other couples but this one is the best!! they even have matching hair color kekekeee)

Then something must've hit Hyukkie's head while off-screen that he chose EunSeo.

_{(We should've suspected something since the other SJ members said him being backstabbing and disloyal?)}I mean, we all know that Hyuk's a committed gagman trying to pull off jokes and make everyone laugh by being a playboy but he accidentally went overboard by disregarding Sena's feelings. Yes, Hyuk might have thought Eunsoo was gorgeous but they just don't fit together. Eunsoo and Hae is actually so much better together since they both look very,very pretty (which also goes in the perfect face category imo xDD).

The way Hyuk rejected Sena is downright harsh. Since Hyukkie was all over variety shows and even on some dating shows he might not take it seriously, but it was hurtful an act. It was only him for Sena all from the start. (Fact: I KNEW SHE WAS A JEWEL TOO!! )

Hyukjae was lucky that she forgave him. But of course she would.


***

I love Hyukkie lots and was jealous about him getting on WGM too but after seeing Sena, somehow I was totally relieved. Now this show made me love Sena a lot too. They are perfect together.

_{But is it just me, or Hyukkie is being weird lately? He usually has that adorable, sweet and gentle image in the past but it flipped 180 degrees since his hairstyle changed! And Oppa Has Risen. He's starting to scare me a little  too lol. Maybe its the phase where he is 'maturing'? hahahahaaaa}

On a side  note, I actually dreamt of Heechul this morning~! aslkjgfa;giwjkgfafg so damn cool (゜∀゜)

Because Sungminnie is just so cute.

Drew this yesterday. Love how it turns out ^^ a bit of realism is so fun to draw lately xDD

Just how the hell can some guy in his mid-20s be so cute!!!???

and a bonus doodle of Teukie xD

or as my friend exclaimed, "ghoooostt !!!!!" lol

*Please note that these are drawn with heavy reference >w<

KPOP is taking over me xD

got some time to customize my personal items... haha ... here is my phone shell and the cover of my diary in its current form xDD

Sharpie has walked over the white phone shell~~ leaving footprints of... SUPER JUNIOR~~!! kekekeke

Customized my diary yesterday... with KPOP~~!! wakakakaakakakakka xDDD 
all these are just cut-and paste pictures from magazines and yes, SuJu is taking over my life hahhaha xDD

If you did not recognize, the SuJu pic is from this week's EPOP Cover!! lol cut it right after buying haha

here you can see, there's my precious SUJU below it SHINee, then from the top right down there's BIGBANG and 2NE1 ♥ ♥ and there's yesung's proud scene from smtown paris, then there's a random pic of Henry , Key, Teukie, and my beloved myeolchi ♥ beside there's handsome prince Hae ^^

you can see there's still some empty spaces, I'll try to fill them in with the four missing handsome guys (Kibum, Hankyung, Kangin Heechul), if not there'll be Infinite :D

and there's the back cover too, don't miss out...

back cover~~
Though it looks nice, there's a little too much SHINee lol

on the top half , from top left there's two pretty pictures of CL ^^ then two pictures of T.O.P. on the right (it happened to be alot of pictures of him in the magazine, so why not?), then the second row there's SHINee's first Japanese album, a picture of my Hyukkie from tai wan mei, and teuk.

the mass of text below it is every SHINee song ever released so far, and then the members themselves . I told you there's too much SHINee =w=;;

i swear i will cover this with more and more better pic in the future... for the sake of freshness lol

You might see more customized items in the near future too, because serously, its so damn addicting ~!