Everything is so epic really

Bigbang is having going to have their concert first time in Malaysia during their Alive Tour.

And I has no money nor time nor authorization nor transport.

*sobs*

I'll just have to wait for next time, whenever far away that reality may be. :/
I love them so freaking much and I'm going to love them more and more. That's a fact.

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The dance competition is today, and as you can see, our participation is canceled. I bought all sorts of materials to make props and accessories just for the occasion, so they shall stay in the cabinets until crafting days come. Which is a year away. Oh well.

As disappointed as I may be, its gone. It wouldn't go well if we do participate anyways.

It's okay though, I guess, even if it may be the last chance of joining any sort of beginner-level dance competitions. Its not like I'd have the skill to compete yet either.

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Okay I admit, I'm sad about it lol.

I bought a pretty jacket and finally got myself a hot glue gun(after years lol) during material shopping too, it does do some cure!

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Also, the cancellation gave me time to end the craziness of two out of three huge project school works at once. The explanations of my absence online.

So so busy and tiring, and week without good sleep until the day before yesterday.

And there's still 100 fishies and 5+3 coloured canvas shoes and 8 full step by step process ilustrations to draw for the arts project. Due Monday.

*sobs again*

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I lub being busy. It so frustrating its feels good.

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I being chatting with friends at school about BJDs during Monday. And one lent me a cosplay tutorial book, with a whole chapter covering on BJDs on Wednesday. Can you believe it? The first time seeing something dolly related in real life lol.

To add on that, another friend lent me a copy of Another (anime) on the same day. Juicy horror anime, yums. To my surprise, there are dollies too!! No one could imagine how excited I was hahahahahaaaa

Overeactive oh yea.

But it couldn't be a coincidence that their opening song was sang by ALI PROJECT seriously? Because they sang for Rozen Maiden too ( FYI its an anime about BJDs too).

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As a random note, something about me that people don't really know about me, and as hard as it is to admit,

I have an abnormal liking towards bunnies.

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And its a seriously complete coincidence that some of my Starskull bunnies resembles B.A.P. mascots, the MATOKI or whatever you call them. Yes, its a simple design that may be done to death by anyone but I certainly did not copy. The Starskull bunny I designed during 2010.

The mascots are damn cute, of course ...Maybe make fan merchandise for them? Is it legal to do that?

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Daesung's voice is so calming. I need more solos from him on infinite replay :'>

Tuition, Usual student life, Oppas, and Dollies

So i've signed up to two more tuition classes. Which means I have to stay at the tuition centre for three and a half hours straight every Saturday and Sunday. Great.

Well its not that bad actually. And with extra study reinforcements means less need to study during free time for me yaays

The first class today was Chemistry, and its quite amusing that the teacher calls every student her "darlings". Its quite a surprise to see so many friends I knew in that class, since I only knew one of my classmates attend it, and the other classes I took had not a single person familiar... I was happy that I can meet some of my classmates from primary school(who are also fellow ELFs ) but the fact that the subject and syllabus is confusing took part of the excitement away. And that fact that a class for additional math is scheduled right after that means no chance to chat up with them : /


On a side note, i seem to be more a VIP than an ELF lately, and Bigbang's playlist is on constant replay. As of current, BB posters on the wall outnumber Suju, phone and laptop wallpapers, profile pictures, avatars, fb cover photos are all Bigbangggg~

To my lovely RL ELF friends:
I'm waiting for suju's comeback with their sixth album too...I can't say I don't love SJ or BB so please dears please don't make me feel guilty TwT I love both groups and can't live without them both, voting for the other doesn't make me unloyal okay?

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Anyways, for these few days I had this unreasonable craving to sculpt and create yet another BJD. Yes, I am totally aware that my first daughter is still unfinished and shelved but it takes more time and brain grilling to repair her than making a new doll IMO. Or at least for now.

Then as the crave grows the extra time and peace I have from staying at my cousin's house(they will be outstation for a few days) came to be invested in drawing plans for new doll designs and daydreaming about the production process. As of currently, I had two lines of dolls designed!! In a total of six dolls of varying body size. I'd like to show the plans but it should be kept as a business secret for now : D

I DO have the intent of selling dolls I made myself and I am serious when I say I dream to be a toy designer hahaha. To design collectibles and amusing toys for the mature population, or whatever they should be properly called (because we all know the term 'adult toys' sounds horribly wrong).

So during the three months of waiting for the finals results, I will bring these darlings to life, and hopefully to production.

Though the materials for BJDs are usually resin, I might opt for a cheaper, more affordable material (possibly vinyl) for them. Do my best to earn them a place higher than those bobble-headed Pullips and Blythes (no offense, they're lovable).And maybe make them into something like Gundam kits, to let people assemble them with their own hands and risk getting bootlegged .

There are even plans to sculpt heads resembling our handsome oppas. I have a list of those ulzzangs ready too.

But as for now I hadn't really any materials or money anyways so in the midst of desire there came this idea of making something for someone, and satisfying myself in the process, so I offered my manga class sensei a commission, to make him a personal customized OOAK BJD of one of his own characters ^^

On a discount so big that he'll just have to pay for clay since its primarily to settle my 'unease', to hone some skills in sculpting, and also to fulfill some other desires, like feeding my dA account a decent Deviation. It's some sort of kick start for my dolly empire too! Of course I'll do my best job at it.

Such nice for my brain to think of such a good idea which makes everyone happy. I am in unexplainable ecstasy now : >

...Okay maybe not my loving parents who notice I'm not studying hard enough.

I promise to study really hard everyday so not to jeopardize my studies, and for the sake of not feeling guilty while sculpting, and make it the recreation time I earned through being a hardworking student for the week!! Fighting!!

Oh and this: (warning, don't watch if you have a distaste for highly realistic dolls, or have not a stomach from the Uncanny Valley.)

Such a talented artist. Such a beautiful doll. Such great skills. Although his works creep me out at first, i'm loving them more and more now.

Future To-do list

There's a lot of interesting things that are attracting my thoughts lately... well most always did but due to some obvious reasons they are to be postponed to the not-so-near future T.T Studying, exercises and classes precedes them...

In case I will not be overwhelmed by the sudden free time and end up doing nothing at all  by then, here's a list of things I want to do, after graduation. Bet it'll turn out quite long, but if it doesn't there'll be more updates later.

Objective 1: Earn lots and lots of money and get the BJDs on my wishlist ! Under the condition that I only spending 1/4 of the money earned on dolls, half on savings, and the rest goes to either other things, extra savings or to my parents.

Sub-objective: Get a new tablet to replace the damaged one, and materials for arts and crafts. Achieve by doing traditional art.

Below are my options~

• Do art commissions
• Get a part-time job (one that give partial social interactions will be nice)
• Make and cast my own dolls to sell
• Customizing shoes, caps, helmets, files, laptop covers etc etc
• Make badges, stickers, merchandise, fan items
• Sell crafts (Plushies !!)

Then the rest of the list is comprised of more personal goals, in no particular order~

• Make tiny-sized (<30cm), easily customizable and affordable BJDs
• Finish a short manga
• Finish a short fan comic
• Learn a programming language (Java/Python/html...)
• Designing toys, as newer versions of olden toys (the kind our parents play with when they're small)
• Change out the tasteless wardrobe. Shopping!!
• Learn to cook (as a cook's daughter I'm a disappointment orz)
• Learn to style all sorts of hairstyles and do makeups
• Sew a dress
• Get a budgie or a roborovski hamster
• Learn to drive (though I might not want to drive)
• Compose three dance music and choreograph them
• Lose fat (not weight)
• Afford contact lenses
• Read lots and lots of novels (and catch up on all those popular ones)
• Read lots and lots of comics (FMA, Baccano, Kuroshitsuji, Dogs, Bleach, Spice and Wolf)
• Get an ipad/iphone
• Learn to play the guitar/bass and drums (I am very convinced I have good rhythm lol)
• Make an art book
• Get a humongous plushie
• Learn Japanese... and Korean...
• Watch BOSS
• And lastly, to attend the concerts of BigBang, Super Junior, and B1A4 for at least once each. (Bigbang's concert at top priority because it might be the only chance in life to meet the holy five gods, and B1A4 because I just have the need to see Jinyoung's handsomeness in real life lol)

There'll also be all the other important aspects of life to deal with too, of course. Oh dears, the list is so long, I wish they'd give me a whole year of holidays to complete those ...(but its impossible).

Listing them out makes me want to start doing things right now...but instead I have to forget about all of this until next year, damn!