Current status: Zombie

One.

 It has been quite a stressful week, still the start of the year. I don't really feel the stress though, with my ever enjoying mode, but my body tells me that it needs serious calming down, rebooting and sleep, haahha. Panda eyes are turning zombie-ish everytime you see a reflective surface @@

I hadn't been really updating this blog with fresh juice these few days, and the feel for writing didn't appear either. Heck, i hadn't even have a single entry for my personal (RL) diary since school started. The colorful pens can't be wasted just on school notes~!! xDD

Two.

I've been very, very willing to talk (and even being loud) today. Somehow I was able to lead (?) our club's meeting, respond to people whom i normally wouldn't, and accept people that i didn't really like.Which has never really happened before. But somehow I don't think I did good and people look a bit offended.  Because I'm just the kind of anti-social idiot that would not talk even if  I had to. Maybe because of that I feel like shit after all that socializing.  Too much self conscious and self doubt is just that horrible. Such a failure. Just what the hell does people like to hear about?

Three.

Falling in love with your own work is more than amazing. A creation that i started on 2010 which i deserted and almost abandoned, looked so beautiful again by the evening sun. An unfinished clay ball-jointed doll, sitting on my workdesk for almost a year.

 She was not even decent and would even make me puke meals comparing to pretty dolls by professional companies. But somehow she was so beautiful today that i finished her abandoned wig-in-progress. And adjusted the tiresome stringing in her head. And stared at her for only more than 5 hours. Just.

And somehow it didn't even feel awkward anymore, when calling her 'my daughter' ever so affectionately. It did feel very absurd before, and didn't think i'd love her as much. My parents couldn't stand me referring her as their granddaughter though LOL

My daughter is so pretty :D I shall post pictures of her soon.

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Anyhow, I've been seriously sleep-deprived due to the workload (which has an non-existent infinity superscript ) and is very tired since returning from school (on Monday lol). Yet its midnight and I'm still here typing :D